It's got to stop. I keep catching myself and having to tell myself off.
Here's the thing- We've been here for a month now (I know!) and ever since we started work I've been encountering this problem. Leaving. I know it's not until August and it should be at the very back of my mind at the moment. But I just can't help it.
Multiple times a day I think of how much of a connection I feel we've made with the residents of the home already. And this means that multiple times a day I think of just how agonising it's going to be when August rolls around and we have to say our final “Ciao!”s.
It's driving me nuts! I don't want anything stopping me from enjoying every second I have in Chile and giving my all to the people we work with.
So stop it Ellen! Go out there and drink in everything Chile has to offer! Go and sing and dance and play with those kids like you never have before! Take every doubt you have about getting “too attached” and throw caution to the wind! Admit that you love the people you work with and prove it to yourself and them every day! This is your one and only chance, so grab it with both hands, start running and never look back!
Ok, that's it. Enough with the nagging thoughts of leaving. From now on it's living in the moment all the way!
Thank you blog readers for giving me an audience to my rants :) Here's a cute picture to say thank you:
I know how you feel Ellen. I only had children from Belarus for 3 weeks at a time and it was heart breaking when they had to leave and return to a completely different life in their village. But they remain in your heart and the memories will be with you forever. Makes us much more humble and appreciate the lives we enjoy. Take care. XX
ReplyDeleteHi Ellen. We're enjoying reading your blog, it's very informative and making us laugh. Sounds like you're soaking up the atmosphere and experience. We hope you're publishing this into book form when you return home! It's amazing how children with special needs no matter where they're from can touch your heart.
ReplyDeleteLove and God Bless
Ryan, Nanny and Aunty Janet
xox
Thank you! It´s nice to know that you´re all keeping tabs on me :)
ReplyDeleteYour thoughts and comments mean a lot xx